Ha.

+ No matter how hard you try to fit in, or how much you care about someone, somehow you always end up bitterly disappointed in them. And wallowing in a good dose of self loathing.

Fantastic

+ Yesterday the AIM Today page kept popping up with the headline "The Stars Helped Katie Conceive". Oh good. I couldn't possibly have thought she actually had sex with that old boob of hers.

Effortless

+ I don't even have to do anything to piss people off it seems. Since I dropped caller id last year I tend to screen my calls (mostly because I don't like talking on the phone much). I don't actually receive many calls anyway, so it's useful. Grandma and my friend S. tend to prattle on into the machine, scolding me like I'm actually sitting here listening. Some days I am. Most days when I don't pick up on their rambles, I'm not here. I'm working, or out walking or running errands (or the volume is down). This is a morning where I'm listening to the machine, mostly because I forgot to turn it down. Grandma is going on about how she wishes so much that my family and I could watch today's Dr. Phil (I learn later it's about ego building). And then she cuts off with an 'anyway - '. I thought she was done. Then she calls back. "Annie? Did you hang up on me?! You could really piss me off!" .. I was nowhere near that telephone. So I call her back and lie and say I wasn't even IN the room. I was in the bathroom. Which she then found hilarious (even though I didn't even hang up on her. I never picked up). Oy vey. They think I'm never doing anything. If I'm never doing anything, how is it I get all this artwork done?

+ She always seems baffled and surprised (and mostly it goes over her head) when I explain to her that I "don't watch a lot of television". "Well, then what DO you do?" she asks me. "I read, I paint, I play games. I go out for walks. I just don't watch a lot of tv." "..Oh." Particularly through the day. I have a few favourite shows, and that's the extent of it. Her Dr. Phil and Oprah do not rank up there. Oy vey.

Yuzz

+ Stephen Colbert says that his alphabet begins with 'Yuzz'. All hail the Colbert Report.

+ My fiancee went home today. And while I mildly griped about having to share my space, I'd rather have him here. I'm looking forward to living with him.

Georgia on my mind

+ Ray was a really good movie.

+ Jamie Foxx's performance as Ray Charles was phenomenal. It truly was.

Ole

+ Taco salad is love.

Bah

+ I shouldn't be upset that a friend of mine had to cancel our ice cream "date" (get together). I can appreciate errands and busy and gas prices (she lives 45 minutes away). But I am. I'm pretty disappointed. I rush around trying to make sure her wedding present is wrapped and that we (Leigh and I) are ready when she arrives and I come home from said rushing to find out she can't. But she feels bad I guess and would like to reschedule. I don't know. I don't really feel like rescheduling. I just don't care. I'd rather sit here and cry. Because I'm frustrated.

It is a..

+ Disconcerting feeling to awaken in the morning and realize that you have no pants.

This week I..

+ Received carpet burn on my right knee. And not for anything "cool" (I was diving across the room after a moth at one am..).

+ Ran into a table in the hallway. Receiving a big purple bruise on my left thigh.

+ Burned my left leg on my space heater.

+ Pulled my own hair while removing my nightgown.

+ For everything else there's Mastercard.

Rawr

+ Some days you just need a place to spew your venom semi anonymously.

Humans

+ I swear I am so done with humans.

+ Dear humans: To those of you, from the trashy set, who appear irritated or pissed off that your kids cost so much. Or that they want so much at the store. And you're too poor and selfish to provide for them. Here's a newsflash: That $5 dollar box of condoms that you didn't buy because you either couldn't afford it or because sex wouldn't have "felt as good"..well guess what. $5 over the thousands you're going to be spending to support those kids for the rest of your deadend, pissant life is way cheaper. Buy the fucking condoms. Or stop having sex.

+ Reminds me that I forgot to buy condoms. Must remember Saturday.

The room is alive..with the sound of..cast recordings.

+ I didn't need to spend $23 dollars with BMG.

+ However..buying Spamalot at club price and getting Wicked for $3 is hard to beat.

+ That is all.